Reflection

Most of the time, while we were chattin among our colleague .... friends .... or even strangers. We get to know a lots of ourselves that we nt ever notice. Honestly speaking, from their reflection. I realize that myself is quite small gas .... emotional ..... quite lots of things lor ... Well, i will try to change to be a better person ! Recently, quite lots of my colleague leavin working place ..... Some goes for their speacialized field, some goes for further studies .... some other leavin for private purpose ..... Causin quite a lots of scene happen in my working place ... Feel quite odd when tis happen around myself .... Realize many ppl have different opinion on same things, however it's nt easy to put ourself in other shoes meanwhile, ourselves nt able to have the best out of ourselves.

"be True to Ourselves" is my code right nw ...

life wif job ....

life .... is tough, maybe im just too soft to accept all this .... reli dun like the way my life is like tis nw .... feel like havin a vacation ..... escape to a fantasy where there is nuthin to worry .... juz be free and be myself .... rather than wearing a mask everyday .....

walkin in a circle ....

it been months since my last post i guess, never really notice all those date listed beside my older post .... tis few months just seem like a years plus like tat for me, so hard to survive through ... whining everyday bout wht happen .... wonder why ... wonder how ... all those happen ..... nuthin seem to be right anyway. tellin myself to be more positive jus like askin a chicken to swim .... useless ... a lots things happen all tis month .... nuthin happy actually ... but jus tons of things tat make me feel helpless ... depressed .... eventhough hw much i wanna express it .... something jus blockin my way ... i was thinkin ... after all tis time... im still alone as usual ..... friends ? maybe im nt jus so good in it, been a friends mean wht ? i reli dun quite get it .... jus let it be natural ..... now ... im onli hoping ... i get the chance to work outside miri .... maybe brunei ... singapore .... or any other places tat i can go ... whereby nobody know me at all .... startin a new life .... leavin all the old memories behind ..... tis is all jus because ... my life is without motive ..... or desire ......

Erm .... What should be the topic ?

Last saturday, my friends and i went to some buffet dinner leh ..... At beginning, i was excited. As i get to meet all my friends tat i havent seen them for quite a long time ord .... Samuno .... Nee .... Doreen .... Kiing ... Fino them lor ...... At first, we thought it would be a buffet at cafe rosita. But it turn to be some organization/society annual dinner like tat .... kaoz ! Feel a bit like cheated leh ! Plus the food choices ain't much ...... the organizer also nt punctual .... actually it shud start at 6.30, but was delayed to 8pm like tat ... Haiz .... Anyway .... nvm bah , friends mah .... say wht

Muahahahaha ! Im lookin forward to tis fridae 1st of May - the labor day .... Although me & my colleague still have to work tat day, but we got activities at nites time. And it is BUFFET at GRAND PALACE !!! Finally got chances to taste the real buffet ! Haha, my saliva is coming out of my mouth ! keke

Updated : haha, 2molo me off, no nid work, wakakakak !

“闲”的人

常在想，朋友的定义对于每个人都有不同的意思吧！我总在思考一个只意味说“成熟点啦”的人， 什么事都说的不清楚，把人当成是无知少年。而自己做事情却把自己放在中间。安排好的事情，取消了。我只不过问原因罢了，却不告知。并不止一次，而是好多次。我承认我小气，也好过那些自称成熟的人吧！说一套做一套，爽爽就找你，不爽就不理不睬。朋友做到着地步还有什么意思我也不懂了。尤其做到要每天骗来骗去。。。。有些事，你都不说清楚，却希望人家以他所谓的“成熟”的思想去想。当我是你的神啊？你的老母啊？=你不说清楚，鬼知你想干嘛！也不想睬这些人。。。。。。

心谈了，也只为工作而生活的我。。。
很闲了，看来都只不过如此罢了。。。

无主题

一部戏好比一面镜子，反映了生活的一部分，
人生中总有好有坏的，分别在于多或少罢了，
有一些人会在你人生，留下深刻的影像，
但这并不代表你的一切，他/她是可缺可无的，
虽然我没真真深爱过一个人，所以没什么资格，
说出这一些话，不过我认为人生有好多东西，
没必要把焦点放在同一个点上，能的话，
扩大你的眼睛，看看这世界，还很美好的，

我的朋友，希望你过得好好

别让你的步伐停留太久，我们都在等着你

This Few Days ......

Mani things happen tis few days ..... So mani until i can't type in order ... Some of my colleague fall sick lately .... quite serious i think, hoping them gettin well soon. Some of my friends facin lots of problems due to their training job. Although im nt in the position to understand hw u guys feel & hw hard is ur stress, but i truly hope the best wishes for all of you .... sincerely ... Lately into deep night, i hardly get to sleep. Been thinking lots of things ..... my future .... my expenditure plannin ..... hw to get my strong will & determination back ? It seems like i get tired easily workin lately, maybe just because i been thinkin too much, bout the necessary & unnecessary ..... this started to freak me out .....

I losing my concentration lately ..... Losing my ability to decide whether things is right or wrong, the simplest things tat a human shud noe hw to differentiate ! Oh my Godness ! Things does nt go along the way like u expected ...... It occur so sudden .... unexpected .... just like tat. We have no option but to get along with it .... My appearances also doesn't seem to matter anyway ord .... Maybe i shud just prove myself ...

Friends is always a friends ? Who the fxker ever said tat !? Things don't stay as it like forever, but changing everlasting .... But still i believe in all my friends, i feelin like doin something nw, and i do reli need help from friends tat like design , i am a complete idiot in adobe things like tat .... quite hard to learn though

This gonna be another long night ...... Staring at the dark sky & ...... NO STARS TO COUNT !