yesterday i just wanna said " today you are extraordinary beautiful without those make-up " , you seem to be the most purify and beautiful angel ..... in my depth heart ....

Hmm ......

Frankly speaking, i really don't know how to like or love a person properly ....
It's been years i guess, since i found out that i liked that person ....

现在的我

不知这样的喜欢会持续多少久

不知我何时才能停止这些感觉

I only know that i am unable to stop thinking about her everyday ....

All i can do is stay aside from her view ...

Keep updated her news & silently looking at her ....

Maybe just because i never truly love one before causing me devoting almost everything

Well .... not really everything, because i am 1st timer, i was able to hold back 20%

using gaming time & hanging out with friends to spend my time ...

I still remember ones said: " don't love someone because you are lonely, love because you need them desperately."

Somehow i don't really understand those phrases ...

EXample: when most of the times i was talking about how to slim down, most of my friends said yea you should do it, it's good for your health and bla bla bla

Meanwhile she would always said: " You are who you are, don't try to make changes on yourself just because of others."

Does she means i should not change my present looks & attitude just because of her?

I don't really get what gals means sometimes, it's quite troubling me ...

Aiks .. Aiks .... I really don't know what to do already ....

Kinda hoping this year gonna be a good year for me, don't know why so many changes happen within my old friends ... Connection seem to be lost ... Perhaps misunderstanding occurs but both remain silent & lets it be ....

I wished that this year my birthday gonna be a bit different ...

Wish to be very very meaningful to me ....

I expect something to happen or someone .... xxx

i just wanna sing :

我真的真的好想你

却不知该如何表达

只好把这份深情

埋藏在我的心底

也许我不够成熟

也许我不够爱你

也许我们没缘分

。。。。。。。。

Sometimes

Sometimes life is just very tiring ..... until i wanna find someone to speak with ..

when i look into my hp ... i jus realized there nt much friends which i can speak

with, the one tat im willing to share all my feeling and things happen on me & around

me ... maybe are jus nt interested in listening it .... which make me dun even bother

to find her .....

Time passby .... hoping i could forget her is jus becoming kinda impossible ....

as everyday i will try to get know more bout her news and sort on ...

hoping i could help her out no matter in wht kind of things .....

Tis things is kinda blind i think ..... cuz we willin to do things without hoping

anything in return .... am i Blind nw ?

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no matter how hard i try to avoid .... no matter how far i try to run away ..... when you suddenly pop out .... the feeling is owes there ....

maybe im jus too noob to knw how to chase a gal properly .... might as well do everything according to my feeeling

hope it feel better for both of us ....