walkin in a circle ....

it been months since my last post i guess, never really notice all those date listed beside my older post .... tis few months just seem like a years plus like tat for me, so hard to survive through ... whining everyday bout wht happen .... wonder why ... wonder how ... all those happen ..... nuthin seem to be right anyway. tellin myself to be more positive jus like askin a chicken to swim .... useless ... a lots things happen all tis month .... nuthin happy actually ... but jus tons of things tat make me feel helpless ... depressed .... eventhough hw much i wanna express it .... something jus blockin my way ... i was thinkin ... after all tis time... im still alone as usual ..... friends ? maybe im nt jus so good in it, been a friends mean wht ? i reli dun quite get it .... jus let it be natural ..... now ... im onli hoping ... i get the chance to work outside miri .... maybe brunei ... singapore .... or any other places tat i can go ... whereby nobody know me at all .... startin a new life .... leavin all the old memories behind ..... tis is all jus because ... my life is without motive ..... or desire ......