im tired

i noe i ain't suppose owes mourning bout im tired ....

but im reli trying hard to maintain all ..... my brotherhood friendship & my sista side friendship .... somehow ... someone dun like me doing so .... as resulted .... im turned into the refrigerator by someone .... my heart reli ache everytime when i think bout it .... im jus reli tired ....

我曾以你为我中心，
而你却无视我的存在 ....
我不明白你想如何 ....
但我累了 ....
这是真的累了

Either stay or leave .....

起初只是朋友

坐在窗边看夜景
等着黎明的来临
夜空布满了星星
仿佛点燃着你的名
曾经拥有的回忆
是否会像颗流星
光芒绚丽划过天际
消失后毫无痕迹
起初只是朋友而已
这个故事谁不熟悉
美丽的结局我不敢肯定
等待你的回应
以后是否能再继续
这份感情若带给你恐惧
我宁愿隐藏在心底
在这一夜我没有睡
一直后悔为何要把自己说清
万一只是万一
我就会一瞬间
完全失去你

Wanna say : 你不知道的事

I - Me - Myself

I am starting to get tired already with ... all this

Maybe just because i too believed in Fairytales would come truth one day ...

This all is just imagination ....

I am just very tired ......

Letting ppl monitor my emotion & feeling ...

Being single is also very enjoying rather than keep liking a person meanwhile i noe im jus like a stupiak ..... ?

just

i just wanna said i really miss you ....

almost all the things u taught me .... i remember ...

u taught me how it felt like when we are missing someone ....

and now im really missing u .... deeply ...

our life is too short ..... so i just have to spent my time to know u better ...

my only private space ......

can i request for one thing ? whenever i helped u or do anything for u .... pls dun say thanks .... cuz it reli hurts ...

until 2dae then i found out .... why i felt hurt whenever she say thanks .... maybe tat is bcuz wht i want is not a thanks ....

frankly speaking, im a kind of person tat wont do things tat resulted zero to me one ..
at least tat wht i think of myself ....

somehow ... when it come to her ... all things changed ... my attitude ... my behavior
example normally i owes scold rude words in my chatting .... but whenever im wif her, it seem quite impossible for me to say any rude word ....

my mood .... is decided by her every word .... every action .... every glances ....

if she say hi ~ im veri happy
if she say bye ~ my heart dropped ...

i never knew hw it felt like of missing a person ....
when i gettin to know tat i nt goin to heard any news from her for weeks ....
unable to see her face ..... heard her voice .... anything anything from her ...
my heart is shivering cuz im scared .... i also duno wht i scare bout ...

im ugly .... im fat .... im disgusting ....

but yet i guess i have the right to like someone i reli liked , right ?

my life is been like my usual life until she stepped in .... the images was like a film ..... flowing from the day i knew her existence ..... smk chung hua ...... until we happen to met each other and sit together eating pizza during form 5 ... i never reli noticed she .... until the day we met again in college .... everything was so different ... the feeling .... the way it flow ... it's amazing ....

but still the stories go on ....

phew ..... i feel relieved after ojibala here .....